I reallyyyy need to get my website up to date with commission info oops, but yes I take custom character and tattoo design commissions I will only draw isolated illustrations for tattoos (as in, I won't design a whole sleeve, or a cover up or something that needs special attention to anatomy, because I am not a tattoo artist and don't know the logistics of this stuff lol). I've done it before and it's a lot of fun!!! I don't take commissions for existing characters, OCs and IRL people, mainly because I work better with a concept that is original to the commission instead. It's not personal against anyones OCs or such, I just really struggle to make these commissions work. But feel free to hit me up with an idea for a character design or a tattoo design and I can make it work ^^ Thank you!!

The truth is, you cannot avoid anything while taking T ;; every body will react and develop differently while on HRT, I grow facial hair (albeit not heavily) and I shave 4-5 times a week, plus I'm actually pretty hairy everywhere else and at a certain point it gets overwhelming to shave like over half of my body LOL so I don't bother often. Im always so cautious giving out tips for HRT just because it is so personal and tailored to each person, like genetics, dosage, pre existing conditions etc, so I really only can say is to keep an open mind and not be scared to speak up/stand up to your doctors if you feel anything wrong/are having changes you find scary or uncomfortable. You will be going through changes and some of them may not be entirely desired but you have to weigh up whether those changes are worth it to you, especially if T is something that gives you euphoria in other ways. You WILL have hair in places you don't neccessarily want, you will have a male hairline over a extended period of use (yes that can mean male pattern baldness rip), but that's the trade off for me for other things that make me happy (the masc fat distribution/build, deep voice, etc). And for anyone else reading this, since this was once a huge anxiety of mine, being non binary and taking HRT is normal, if it brings you happiness and comfort, then it is the right path and all that matters. In my honest opinion there is no right or wrong way to look nonbinary and neither is there a set look to it either. But I get what you mean lol 😭 you can always fuck around with gender and mix and match, you have to play around with what makes you happy and comfortable. For me, I have the "masculine" voice, build and face but the long hair, femme (ish) fashion and makeup and that's just been what makes me happy right now, but non binary will look different to everyone, whether that is about facial hair, short, long or no hair, fashion choices, body type and build, or "cis-passing"/not explicitly presenting gender-noncomforming etc. It's really your playground to experiment with, and it doesn't have to immediately happen either. Just experiment in your own way, it took me years to get where I am with my expression and gender identity so you are never in a rush :] I hope this helped in some kind of way, take care <3

So far, from https://starstylewigs.co.uk/ and https://peruecken-online.com/ Also back when I lived in the UK, I got some basic wigs from coscraft that I have cut and styled, but I haven't ordered since I moved. Definitely more on the cosplay side than the "fashion" side. Sorry in advance that these are all very EU / UK centric if you don't live here : ' D On my wishlist are a bunch of wigs from TwodotsDreadsWigs that I keep eyeing uppp.... but they are definitely an investment ;_;

Thank you so much!! I can attempt a tutorial in the blog someday soon once I figure out the logistics of documentation the process lolol I've just been hesitant since makeup tutorials are never always one size fits all in terms of shape and execution ;; (from experience) I don't really have a main inspo, nor do I actually watch tutorials anymore. I think the inspiration is just alternative and gothic styles in general that I've adapted to work for my own face and eyes. I kind of take bits and pieces from various styles I like, ie cybergoth, emo, 2000s makeup trends, goth n certain j fashions and then mash it together depending on the mood. I'm also an avid Pinterest user lmaoooo

Hi, no worries at all! I'm really sorry to hea r that you've been struggling this much. I'm not too sure if my advice here is universal and applicable to you since everyones transition is unique and personal, but I will do my best anyway : ) Honestly though, I was in a somewhat similar situation as this (ie feeling trapped as a trans man and not even knowing where to start with actually exploring what I wanted to be/felt inside but never allowed myself to become. It's like a transition within a transition lol). I still don't have everything figured out either, but the best thing you can do is give yourself patience, grace and room to experiment. You don't have to pick one gender either, there is nothing wrong or bad about being in a constant state of fluidity with it, and eventually you might just settle somewhere comfortable. And you also might not and keep it fluid forever, which is also okay. If you feel this "want" to be non-binary, there is no shame in just trying it out and seeing if it fits. There is never anything wrong in taking the time to try new things especially for self exploration and discovery, and you can always "go back" to how it was before if you find that it's uncomfortable and try something else. There's no time limit to it, or amount of times you can try it out, and your options are endless. Good people around you will understand this and also give you time and grace to figure it out. I hope one day that you can find comfort in your gender, whatever your decision is and whatever makes you feel happy, confident and yourself. And if you ever want to ask more questions that I would be ready to answer < 3

No worries at all! And honestly, I don't have anything like magazines or something I take reference from, it's mostly my own wardrobe, aesthetic tumblr blogs, goth blogs and Pinterest :' D I also follow a handful of designers and cool people who make/wear fun and interesting things which is always helpful for inspiration and motivation ^_^ feel free to go through my following and find something inspiring there! You can also look at old goth styling/DIY YouTube videos and tutorials, there's a lot of content out there for sure which you can definitely apply to OCs!

AWWW THANK YOU SO SO MUCH yeah deffo not the forehead but if you did get my stuff tattooed I would explode probably (positive)!!!!!!!! < 3

Thank you so much, and so happy that you take the time to read and enjoy!!! I will definitely post more when I'm ready to share :3 < 3

Hi! Thank you so much < 3 I don't actually do any editing to my art other than layer effects. I have tutorials on my Instagram if you wanna know how I get the effects when I'm colouring! They're in the reels tab on my profile :] and while I'm drawing, I am also messing around with contrast, hue and brightness. As for makeup/outfit pics, I don't know if I'd ever make a tutorial officially for those. But some tips, I always cut out the background and slap myself onto a background I made (usually a snippet from my existing art, or a heavily contrasted, pixilated image of something. Could be anything). Almost all of my outfit pics are shot in a video and screenshotted to get a picture out of it, way more hands off and easier because I am the only one involved haha. Then it's just a matter of layering on small motifs and pictures. I'm either using Paint Tool SAI to edit, or if I'm lazy I use PicsArt on my phone. Again mess with the contrast, brightness, hue, and layer effects until it looks the way you want it to! I hope this helped at least a little!

Thank you so so much!!! My only solid advice about OC development and world building is just be cringe and free about it, and not care what other people are gonna say/think about it!!! Pour your interests and hobbies into them, create what you want to see and what you think is missing. I obsess over my own characters like they're little toys in my brain that I can project things onto!!!!! Take inspiration and ideas from artists and works that you like and create your own things with it and rid yourself of any shame, guilt or embarrassment you have about your art/yourself as a person. As easier said than done, but you will naturally grow and so will your art/characters alongside it. Really, my OCs are an amalgmation of myself, my interests, experiences and in the case of Askallen and Growan (formally Nicholas), those two are born of homesickness as they are extremely tied to Cornish folklore, ghost stories and culture that I have adapted into the universe they are living in. I love history (1600s-1700s), so I wanted to create a dark-sci-fi universe inspired by this time period and folklore. Askallen was inspired by the myths of the ghosts of highwaymen stalking the moorland, and so is the reanimated corpse of one after a lifetime of robbery and murder, possessed by the parasites and mould that infest the land. Growan was originally a character with a lot of religious guilt and shame, but now I switched focus to him being more of a victim of circumstance who wants nothing more than to fight and destroy the causes of those circumstances. In this case, being a vessel created as a weapon in subservience to those who oppress him. Basically, all my OCs are either metaphors for the struggles of being marginalised, or an eclectic mix of my interests, or both. With a healthy mix of kink, fetish, horror and gothic vibes lolol As for adopts, I don't know when I'll be doing them next, sorry! If I have any designs in my head that I don't want to keep for myself, then I'd sell them, but I can't say when that would be! Thank you so much again < 3

Thank you so much! These words really do help keep me going and creating, so it means a lot. Thanks for stopping by and leaving such kind words! T_T < 3

Thank you so much! I will never ever stop for as long as I can!!!! And really most of my inspiration for body horror comes from personal experiences. Personally, I feel like chronic illness, body image/dysmorphia and being transgender can be their own body horror experiences so I really like to play on those topics when I'm making body horror art. Example would be abstracting breasts or genitals into something grotesque as someone who's gender dysphoria has related to those things, or creating weird/distorted body shapes and tearing them apart as a representation of poor body image, mainly in connection with both my dysphoria and eating disorder. I also had adenomyosis of the uterus which caused painful and debilitating cramps and periods, experiences with doctors questioning me and pushing for me to be fertile as long as possible and general have had healthcare withheld from me so these themes of fertility and body autonomy appear in my art as well. Conceptually I don't take inspiration from anyone besides myself, but visually for body horror specifically, I like the classics like Junji Ito and H.R. Giger but also some others like @/0bolzak0 (instagram), @/orkgotik (instagram) and @/louisfleischauer (instagram) ^_^ Thank you again! <3

This is a lot, so trigger warning for basically literally everything.. but.. Depends on the piece, but art for me is just a way for me to express my own emotions, struggles and frustrations, etc. A lot of my OCs are manifestations of parts of me that I struggle with, e.g Deadmeat as a "living dead" creature is just a massive metaphor for my experiences with gender dysphoria (he killed himself via ripping his chest open in a dysphoric rage) and autism/chronic illness (the nonverbal tendencies, the vocal and physical stimming, the way my body just struggles to work, being sick all the time, that kind of thing). Saline as a character is based on my body image issues and my ED, feeling like I have to be perfect all the time and present an image of being put together to feel respected. And together their relationship has been a way for me to process and deal with the grooming I went through as a preteen, codependency, feelings of abandonment. There's a lot of themes I'm working on with Sarfven and the universe around him, so I'll be leaking more information as I go lol But yeah, there are parts of me in all of my characters, even when they don't look/act the way I would, there is a fragment in there somewhere. Even beyond my characters, body image, autonomy and chronic illness struggles are just baked into all my artwork I think lolol I think generally, I want to make angry/weird but beautiful transgender and queer art that I feel seen with, while also being kinky and weird. I'm kind of tired of the notion that queer people should be less angry, to not be "deviant" or "degenerate", I want it to be seen and understood instead. So long story short, it represents me and my experiences:'

Hello, thank you so much for such kind words, and it truly makes me happy knowing that you're inspired in such a way!!!! Hope that you're also doing wonderful ;_; <3

THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!! its this support that keeps me going,, and I'll try to never stop haha ;_; <3