Hihi! Thank you so much, and im so glad I could inspire you in such ways and its not an odd question! Honestly, my style and the style I put my characters in, is an amalgamation of everything I have ever liked and found cool. I think thats a huge part of finding a style and identity that works for you, never just sticking to one thing that you think will work, and instead curating something personal and special. So unfortunately I cannot really class it as one thing. : ' D That said, I'm huge into kink so fetish fashion is in there, I love all kinds of gothic/gothic adjacent expression and fashion especially rivethead, cybergoth, and a bit of military goth too (im careful about this tbh) and maybe some "mall goth" too. I grew up really liking lots of different j-fashion (decora, lolita, etc) and I used to be both emo and scene at points in my life, so these influences absolutely creep their way in there too! And then my artistic influences are in there too!( which i think I spoke about before in a previous question below) I hope this is a good direction for you to explore in, and remember that style takes time to build and you might not find something that clicks for you immediately!! It's an ever growing process that you can add more and more to and never has to be "complete". I think thats the fun part! Have fun and good luck with your transition and exploration <3 ^ _ ^

Wooo congrats on coming out and taking the steps on your new journey!! It is scary, but as long as you come out feeling much better for it with confidence in yourself and your body, then that is what counts the most. Good luck along the way <3 It makes me so emotional that I could inspire you like that lol, because I know how rough it is to keep expressing myself as I am in the current climate. So that genuinely means so much to me, thank you. ; _ ; I hope you continue with that energy and strength! Thank you again, and all the best for you too in the new year and the many more to come!

Thank you so much for the inspiring and kind words T __ T It definitely helps keep me going with sharing my stuff, so I will always keep it in mind <3 And I'm really glad I could also inspire you like that, having fun with pictures and editing them is just super fun lolol!! I hope you continue having fun experimenting and trying out new stuff. I'm sure you look fucking awesome too! Have a great start to your new year and beyond!

(sent you an email as well) !!! Hi! I don't mind answering your question at all. When I moved officially in 2022 I took two large suitcases of stuff and that was it. So like, clothing, some video game consoles and games, my laptop, etc. But it was alright honestly, I'm lucky that my parents were willing to hold onto a lot of stuff for me because every time I've come to visit since, or when they visit, I've been able to slowly migrate items along as I travel piece by piece (mainly my books and sketchbooks). But a lot of my belongings are still there, or I just donated / sold them. Really for me, it's the emotional aspect of what you leave behind that hurts the most. I had to rehome my exotic pets (geckos and a snake : ( ), I left behind friends and family, left behind something comfortable and secure, and also temporarily my independance. I don't say this to scare you, but depending on where you move, if you don't speak the language to begin with, or aren't accustomed to local customs / buraeucracy, it can be really, really rough. I love my partner to death and I'm so grateful that they were there for me, but depending on someone so heavily to do so much for me like paperwork and other bureaucracy (which I could have easily done myself back home) completely ruined my self confidence/esteem for a while. But it does get better, now I know the language, have new friends, moved to a city, etc it's become easier to function and live independently again. I think with what you lose, you can gain so much back, like even stronger self assurance, potentially a new language, life skills, etc. So in the end, it becomes worth it. All that to say, I took essentials / some comforts with me, sold/donated the rest, and that the emotional part is always the hardest. : ' D I wish you luck wherever it is that you choose to go!

Thank you so much! It's a bit of a mix of both for me, some pieces use no reference, while with others I build off from a reference as a starting point and then take it my own direction, and other times I'm straight up referencing the pose or composition lolol I think the understanding of anatomy has just come with time, from using references and doing studies (though... I have been lacking at doing studies lately ;_; ). It's the standard advice of learning and then breaking the rules that you've learnt, and the more you do it, the easier it will be to grasp! A healthy amount of struggle is okay, it means you're attempting new things and as long as you pace yourself and give yourself time and patience, it will pay off. (Obv take breaks if the struggle gets overwhelming, if you know what I mean 😭) I really like to abstract the body in weird/organic ways while somehow keeping it natural, I don't really know how to explain it other than just finding ways to twist/distort things but only so much to the point its slightly uncanny :' D It became a lot easier to make this pleasing to look at the better I understood the body, and what exactly works well to distort and play around with. Good luck and thank you so much again < 3

I've responded with a bunch of pics of the brushes on my instagram story, since there are no brushes that I can "share"(since they are just standard SAI brushes modified slightly) and I can compile it into a story highlight for safe keeping haha : > I would also be happy to help out with any other troubles you might have about it!

Hey!! Yeah, I deleted it around a year ago now, I never put out a notice or post about it because it was spontaneous, but I couldn't stand being there and supporting the website by existing on it ;;

I reallyyyy need to get my website up to date with commission info oops, but yes I take custom character and tattoo design commissions I will only draw isolated illustrations for tattoos (as in, I won't design a whole sleeve, or a cover up or something that needs special attention to anatomy, because I am not a tattoo artist and don't know the logistics of this stuff lol). I've done it before and it's a lot of fun!!! I don't take commissions for existing characters, OCs and IRL people, mainly because I work better with a concept that is original to the commission instead. It's not personal against anyones OCs or such, I just really struggle to make these commissions work. But feel free to hit me up with an idea for a character design or a tattoo design and I can make it work ^^ Thank you!!

The truth is, you cannot avoid anything while taking T ;; every body will react and develop differently while on HRT, I grow facial hair (albeit not heavily) and I shave 4-5 times a week, plus I'm actually pretty hairy everywhere else and at a certain point it gets overwhelming to shave like over half of my body LOL so I don't bother often. Im always so cautious giving out tips for HRT just because it is so personal and tailored to each person, like genetics, dosage, pre existing conditions etc, so I really only can say is to keep an open mind and not be scared to speak up/stand up to your doctors if you feel anything wrong/are having changes you find scary or uncomfortable. You will be going through changes and some of them may not be entirely desired but you have to weigh up whether those changes are worth it to you, especially if T is something that gives you euphoria in other ways. You WILL have hair in places you don't neccessarily want, you will have a male hairline over a extended period of use (yes that can mean male pattern baldness rip), but that's the trade off for me for other things that make me happy (the masc fat distribution/build, deep voice, etc). And for anyone else reading this, since this was once a huge anxiety of mine, being non binary and taking HRT is normal, if it brings you happiness and comfort, then it is the right path and all that matters. In my honest opinion there is no right or wrong way to look nonbinary and neither is there a set look to it either. But I get what you mean lol 😭 you can always fuck around with gender and mix and match, you have to play around with what makes you happy and comfortable. For me, I have the "masculine" voice, build and face but the long hair, femme (ish) fashion and makeup and that's just been what makes me happy right now, but non binary will look different to everyone, whether that is about facial hair, short, long or no hair, fashion choices, body type and build, or "cis-passing"/not explicitly presenting gender-noncomforming etc. It's really your playground to experiment with, and it doesn't have to immediately happen either. Just experiment in your own way, it took me years to get where I am with my expression and gender identity so you are never in a rush :] I hope this helped in some kind of way, take care <3

So far, from https://starstylewigs.co.uk/ and https://peruecken-online.com/ Also back when I lived in the UK, I got some basic wigs from coscraft that I have cut and styled, but I haven't ordered since I moved. Definitely more on the cosplay side than the "fashion" side. Sorry in advance that these are all very EU / UK centric if you don't live here : ' D On my wishlist are a bunch of wigs from TwodotsDreadsWigs that I keep eyeing uppp.... but they are definitely an investment ;_;

Thank you so much!! I can attempt a tutorial in the blog someday soon once I figure out the logistics of documentation the process lolol I've just been hesitant since makeup tutorials are never always one size fits all in terms of shape and execution ;; (from experience) I don't really have a main inspo, nor do I actually watch tutorials anymore. I think the inspiration is just alternative and gothic styles in general that I've adapted to work for my own face and eyes. I kind of take bits and pieces from various styles I like, ie cybergoth, emo, 2000s makeup trends, goth n certain j fashions and then mash it together depending on the mood. I'm also an avid Pinterest user lmaoooo

Hi, no worries at all! I'm really sorry to hea r that you've been struggling this much. I'm not too sure if my advice here is universal and applicable to you since everyones transition is unique and personal, but I will do my best anyway : ) Honestly though, I was in a somewhat similar situation as this (ie feeling trapped as a trans man and not even knowing where to start with actually exploring what I wanted to be/felt inside but never allowed myself to become. It's like a transition within a transition lol). I still don't have everything figured out either, but the best thing you can do is give yourself patience, grace and room to experiment. You don't have to pick one gender either, there is nothing wrong or bad about being in a constant state of fluidity with it, and eventually you might just settle somewhere comfortable. And you also might not and keep it fluid forever, which is also okay. If you feel this "want" to be non-binary, there is no shame in just trying it out and seeing if it fits. There is never anything wrong in taking the time to try new things especially for self exploration and discovery, and you can always "go back" to how it was before if you find that it's uncomfortable and try something else. There's no time limit to it, or amount of times you can try it out, and your options are endless. Good people around you will understand this and also give you time and grace to figure it out. I hope one day that you can find comfort in your gender, whatever your decision is and whatever makes you feel happy, confident and yourself. And if you ever want to ask more questions that I would be ready to answer < 3

No worries at all! And honestly, I don't have anything like magazines or something I take reference from, it's mostly my own wardrobe, aesthetic tumblr blogs, goth blogs and Pinterest :' D I also follow a handful of designers and cool people who make/wear fun and interesting things which is always helpful for inspiration and motivation ^_^ feel free to go through my following and find something inspiring there! You can also look at old goth styling/DIY YouTube videos and tutorials, there's a lot of content out there for sure which you can definitely apply to OCs!

AWWW THANK YOU SO SO MUCH yeah deffo not the forehead but if you did get my stuff tattooed I would explode probably (positive)!!!!!!!! < 3

Thank you so much, and so happy that you take the time to read and enjoy!!! I will definitely post more when I'm ready to share :3 < 3